JuJu singing Ozzy She’s an Ozzy Baby

JuJu singing Ozzy

What is going on with me

ok so I’m finding my self checking myspace like every 5 minutes and checking my email for someone to contact me. I can’t stop thinking or wondering what’s going on. I haven’t gone crazy like this. I’ve been keeping my JTV lifecast going almost a day in a half now hoping. I’ve even cleaned my place like never before just incase someone should stop in. I’m finding myself day dreaming to the point it scares me. There is so much I could do but I’m afraid to and don’t want to push it. but how do I make things easier and help. There is so much to show and do but I find myself restrained and I don’t like it. Every time I see the pain I’m reminded of what I’ve been through. I know the true way that would change towards better. As I said though I am restrained. ok my mind is in overdrive and I can’t stop it… have a great day…

That Is All.

Is It possible?

For years I have not bothered with girls and only worked on juju and my life. After so long I have been thinking and thinking. And I’m afraid. It seems that when I thought I will be alone till I die something kicks me in the head to wakes me. Is it possible to feel and share and hold someone close to me again. Will I get hurt like always after time goes on because I Put them first and treat them like they never been treated before? Ok I’m Making no sense.. That is all

This will be a day for the books

Have to go to work because boss wants to go hunting and i feel same as yesterday. I don’t know how I’m going to make it through the day. If all the boys & girls are good it should be a nice day. but any how I have to go I try to talk to you later.

Not going to make it …

I feel worst than yesterday. I have to go to work I don’t know if I’m going to make it through the day. It hurts just to get out of bed. I feel dizzy and want to throw up. I can’t afford to be sick money is so tight now. Oh well Time to suck it up I guess.

It’s that time again

Today I woke up and new this was going to be a bad day. I got JuJu up and dressed a over to grammar’s because she had no school due to elections. Went to work seem to take forever. I started working and it seemed like my armed were made of led. I could barley keep standing I wanted to just fall to the floor and rest. Finally I got everything done for Jason and told him I’m going home. I told my boss I’m done for the day. Went home and seen Gramma and she watch JuJu for 2 more hours so I could get some sleep it helped a little but still feel the same. ok I’m going to go and rest now. hopefully I’ll be better later.

Ok here we go again its Monday

Ok so like every Monday I feel like shit because I don’t feel like dealing with crap at work. It’s getting closer to Christmas and things are already picking up since last month. The weekends just go by too fast. but I guess if I want money I have to work. I am glad I have a job these days shit is hitting the fan all over the US. I know Christmas is going to be so hard this year  for me and its not fare on JuJu. I’m going to try my best though.

The website has a whole new look and feel to it. I spent allot of time Sunday working on the layout its just basic for now I will add allot more to it. but I am happy with the way its going. well have to get JuJu ready and me ready for work. Until next time love you all…..